Mum - i do love you, of course i love you as you're my mother but i wish you would treat me with even just 1% respect. I have achieved things that most parents would be so fucking proud of and the lack of interest you put into the things that make me happy is diabolical. I think you need to stop being so sympathetic with ewen and teach him to man the fuck up, he only has one layer of skin and certainly isnt a fighter. Learn to live your life for yourself, not other people. I dont think its necessary for you to copy all of Muriels behaviours because its making you someone else thats no fun to be around. Also - please stop messing with my head, make solid decisions about what the fuck is going on with this whole housing situation because it isnt fair to leave me in suspense.
Dad - i miss you but its time to let you go now, for far too long ive been bogging myself down with the issues you caused when i was younger. I do love you, i always have and always will, even though i didnt show you while you were still here - you wont loose a large part of my heart - ever. Despite the fact that it was a horrible atmosphere to be in at the time, i am thankful for the way you were as it has shown me exactly how not to live my life and you've build me up a fighter character that isnt easily crushed, expanded my understanding of various kinds of people and taught me how to manage loads of situations i wouldnt have known how to otherwise.
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