hello there, have you told your parents about your problem? If not then i would suggest speaking to a confidential councellor.
Whats your diet like at the moment, calorie wise? x
I'm insane and im 99.9% certain i have addictive personality... Make me laugh and i'm all yours.
Thursday, 29 April 2010
hi i saw you on tumblr and read some thoughts. i'm so skinny too and i'm hating it. i'm 5'2 and weigh only 83lbs. i'm kinda hopeless help me.
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
Developed a new respect for clogs
'I just died'
Name 3 people who made you smile today?
Frey, Lucy and Ollie
What is your favorite holiday?
place - Primrose valley
time - summer
What is the best ice cream flavor?
halfbaked/baked alaska/fossil fuel/cookie dough - ben and jerrys (cant choose)
What was the last thing you had to drink?
tea
Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
a new tube skirt
If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
Japan/Tokyo and New york
What is your guilty pleasure?
mcfly
Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
:)
What are you doing tomorrow?
college, then lots of work (i hope) then going to meet people for a bit and going to the fair in ludlow.
yum.
What is your birthstone?
its a turquoisey colour. vile.
Are you allergic to anything?
Nuts, Mushrooms, Wasp stings, Whipped cream, Red Bull, Cheap juice, Prawns, Mayonnaise, raspberries, certain types of cheese, butter, fish, certain flours make me ill as do some yoghurts, i react badly to pollen and some painkillers.
Basically everything.
Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
my brown brogues from topshop
Do you eat healthy?
i think i eat really well actually
How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
20 :|
What holiday is closest to your birthday?
Christmas
Do you have freckles?
Only when its sunny.
What are you doing this weekend?
mums not here so, friday - freyjas house (which i cannot wait for), Saturday im going shopping and to see Dear John then do some work and sleep loads, Sunday - Pendulum gig = drunk, Monday - nice long walk, more shopping, pampering, work and sleeping the energy back.
If you had to pick one meal to eat everyday for the rest of your life, what would it be?
oreo cheesecake and dark chocolate hot chocolates.
Would you change anything you’ve done in your life?
no, i dont think i would - every single thing i've done has taught me a valuable lesson.
which do you think is better. Classical or operant?
i dont agree with behaviourists atall but you cant have classical without operant, they both work together otherwise theres too much scrutiny over the theory. I personally prefer psychodynamic and cognitive.
Tuesday, 27 April 2010
random facts
2: I have brown ringlets and blue eyes
3: I'm from Scotland and therefore talk like a yob
4: I practically only eat chocolate goodies
5: I get paraletic on 3 shots (even if its WKD)
6: I hate foundation and would NOT wear it, EVER.
7: I'm actually really intelligent
8: Mean girls and Trainspotting are the best films of all time
9: I really enjoy reading and sleeping
10: I'd like a pug please!
11: I've seen Mcfly 33 times
12: I'm terrified of veins and heights
13: I have 2 tattoos and 7 piercings (i used to have 14 - ew.)
14: I always have my nails painted
15: Im incredibly insecure
16: I have 8 sweeteners in my coffee
17: I'm so sarcastic it's sickening
18: I really cant stand spoiled brats and people who chew loudly
19: I want to be a clinical psychologist
20: I'm rather meticulous
Monday, 26 April 2010
boredom has struck.
I havent got a clue, actually, yes i have.
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Where is the last place you drove to & with who?
Errr my mum drove me to the train station this morning
Have you ever kissed someone who was drunk?
yes, lots of times...
What color is your shirt?
its a pyjamma top and its pink with little hearts on (im like a 6 year old).
How has the last week been for you?
erm, okay i guess, tiring.
Are you a jealous type person?
Not really, i get jealous of really skinny girls though.
Do you like the sound of pouring rain on your window, or hate it?
love it, especially when im in bed.
How late did you stay up last night & why?
i slept from like 6pm - 1am then couldnt go back to bed
Do you think age in relationships matter?
not that much but a huge gap, yes.
Do you like the idea of promise rings in relashionships?
no.
Who were you dating last year at this time?
nobody...
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, or sweats?
jammie bottoms :)
Does it annoy you when people play dumb?
very much so.
Are you nice to everyone?
god no
Are you from a small town?
aha no, im a city girl all the way
Is there someone who contentiously lets you down?
not anymore.
Are you happier now or four months ago?
now, now, now!
When was the last time you completely broke down?
erm like 2 months ago?
Are you listening to any music?
Rehina-h!
If you got kicked out of the house, where would you go?
to see freyja.
Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you kissed attractive?
very.
Do you remember your dream last night?
no, i remember it was vile but thats all.
Has this year been a good year?
the best :)
Have you been told your amazing?
once or twice
What’s one thing you will not eat?
i dont eat most things...
Ever went tanning?
only in the sun
Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
yes. I love it so much it kills me
What’s your Zodiac sign?
Saggitarius
What was the last movie you watched?
err... i think it must have been Remember me.
Does the last person you held hands with go to your school?
nope
If you had a tree that could grow anything you want, what would you grow?
money and other things ;)
Something you’re excited about?
SUNDAY and Ozora.
Do you care if people swear around you?
depends on who the person is and how it sounds from them.
Has anyone ever pointed out your laugh is unusual?
nope
Do your parents really know you?
my mum likes to think she does but she has no idea
The last person you kissed, have they seen you cry a lot?
no, i dont think they've ever seen me cry.
Was last night terrible?
it was dire but not terrible
Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips?
no...
Why not?
because its not going to happen, ever.
Are you in a good mood?
errrr... in between
Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
yes and it was beautiful.
Last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
the train.
If your best friend was kicked out, would your parents let him/her live with you?
probably not, no :(
What was the last drink you put in your mouth?
tea with 4 sweetners, mmmm.
10 things you wish you could say to 10 people right now:
1. "im so sorry for everything thats happened, i love you"
2. “please dont go.”
3. “stop messing the fuck around and sort yourself out"
4. “please help me, i dont know what to do"
5. “shut the fuck up you fat bitch"
6. “please just... die"
7. “i cant make it go away"
8. “i miss how we used to be"
9. “you've changed far too much"
10. “please stop it, you already have a boy of your own, you dont need to manipulate everyone elses too"
9 Facts about yourself:
1. I have brown curly hair and blue eyes
2. I'm 5'7" and a size 4-6
3. I'm a perfectionist and very hard working.
4. I practically live on cigarettes, coffee and cheesecake
5. I always fall for the wrong people
6. I get paraletic on 3 shots
7. I would really like a pug
8. I spend far too much time online
9. I cant save my money.
7 Things you look for in a boyfriend:
1. Attractive
2. Different/individual
3. Kind
4. Funny
5. Understanding
6. Strange... in a good way.
7. Open minded
7 Things that cross your mind a lot:
1. i need my bed
2. someone get me coffee and a fag
3. i need more money!
4. oh shit
5. remember to blog this later
6. you make me want to die
7. i fucking love you
5 People who mean a lot to you at the moment:
1. Freyja
2. Lucy
3. Jess
4. Stacey
5. Ollie
4 Things you really enjoy doing:
1. shopping
2. sleeping
3. Friend times
4. drinking
3 Things You Absolutely Hate.
1. inside out hoods
2. PEOPLE WHO CHEW LOUDLY
3. spoiled brats
2 Places You Want To Visit.
1. New York City
2. Tokyo
1 Thing You Are Afraid Of.
1. veins




Nerrrrrhgh, today i was so tired i couldnt function properly and i dressed like i was going to the beach and it fucking clouded over and was cold.
Thanks again Britain.
College was okay though, i wish it was Sunday already - i havent touched alcohol since January and am in dire need of a piss up.
Stopped on the way home and bought a really nice plain nude tube skirt for £10 though, highlight of today.
More pictures tomorrow :)
I was looking at some pictures from last year and you popped up- you looked so ill, and it made me realise just how far you've come in the last 18 months. I am so fucking proud of you Yona, you're winning :)
Thank you :) I hope it can continue untill i reach the end of this battle completley because to be fair, im fucking sick of it!
Sunday, 25 April 2010
will you give me a hug tomorrow please? :( i need some lovin.
whoever you are come find me tomorrow and say 'love me' and its done x
I hope that one day, you'll be able to realise how beautiful you are. Don't wait too long.
This is lovely, thank you :)
I wish i knew who sent this so i could hug you so hard your organs pop out.
1: ben and jerrys half baked
2: some money £££
3: a cuddle?
4: a boy :( - a nice one.
5: some sleep
6: cold diet cola
7: marc jacobs rio tote
8: for college to be over
9: boobs
10: to go out
9 musicians/bands you love (in no order)
1: mcfly
2: pendulum
3: Lady gaga
4: New found glory
5: Dizzee Rascal
6: Shpongle
7: Regina Spektor
8: Mumford and sons
9: AFI
8 things you do everyday
1: tumblr myself to death
2: sleep
3: get ready
4: pie my face with chocolate
5: look in the mirror and pick myself apart
6: drink too much coffee
7: fag it
8: work
7 things you enjoy
1: Shopping
2: sleeeeep zzzzz
3: seeing friends
4: bloggg
5: family guy
6: getting parcels
7: ebay/online shops
6 things that will always win your heart
1: bags
2: charm
3: humour
4: sarcasm
5: 'that' look
6: individuality
5 favorites: movie, song, book, food, season
1: movie = mean girls/trainspotting
2: song = boston - Augustina
3: book = a million little pieces - james frey
4: food = cheesecake
5: season = summer
4 smells or scents you enjoy
1: flower bomb - viktor + rolf
2: damp rooms
3: freshly baked cookies
4: coffee
3 places you want to go
1: New York
2: Paris
3: Tokyo
2 favourite holidays
1: Primrose valley
There is no number 2.
1 person you’d marry on the spot
LIAM SOLE!
What makes you want a Pug dog instead of another breed?
because they're all mushy and cute and just lovely to look at.
Saturday, 24 April 2010
Friday

Ahhh, what a nice day to end the week :)
I had like 2 lessons today which was nice because i couldnt be bothered with much due to over exhaustion.
Spent the whole afternoon lounging around in the sun and i'm already burnt (oops)
My freckles have turned into 4,000,000 freckles but yeah...
Planned Ozora more and more and im getting so excited it hurts abit inside.
On the way home i walked through town and bagged myself a lovely skirt from river island £29.99 - weyyy!
Also picked up my tickets for pendulum next week. Im so excited i could die.
if wishes were kisses would you dabble in the tainted art of seduction?
i dont know... i guess it depends on the mood i was in. Most of the time, no...
Thursday, 22 April 2010
Made my first ever daisy chain and it was practically the length of my whole body.
Stopped in town on the way home and managed to pick up the belt (last one in the shop!) in a size S, it was obviously meant to be...
I also had a browse through the sale in Topshop and although it was a pile of jank online, i managed to get a beautiful sheer nude top thats sold out everywhere and a pretty slip dress which i've wanted for ages...
Took loads of pictures too, will have to upload them when i have more time...
Beautiful :) Roll on summer!
day 29
- I hope to find a job
- I hope there are lots of parties!
- I hope people don't forget about me when college is over
- I wish i could find someone who liked me back :\
- I wish i could afford some more clothes...
- I hope my mum and ewen find a place to be happy
- I wish i could go back to Scotland
- I hope it's sunny
- I NEED to get drunk soon
- I wish i could find a style i dont want to keep changing
- I wish i could be comfortable with my body
- I hope we have a holiday this year
- I hope i have a good 20th birthday
- I hope i fit in at uni
if you had a rice crispy treat, would you share it with me?
depends upon whether it was the one with chocolate chips on. I like that one, the rest are vile
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
this belt

Wow.
£19.99 from River island.
This is just the cutest belt i think i've ever seen... it would look so incredibly sweet with all my new things for the summer.
I think a planned stop in the store itself is in order for tomorrow evening, yes sir.
They'd better still have it in stock... I was contemplating buying it last week but decided not to... please still be there! Yona needs you!
day 28
Well, it's gone far too quickly for my liking.
January, to begin i celebrated New years in Stretton with my Freyja and even though we didnt get drunk or anything it was just nice to be with people i love to enter the year.
I had one hell of an experience clubbing at C:21 for Ollies birthday the week after that though, never seen anyone THAT drunk in my life, ever.
Erm... Not much else happened in January other than my English and Psychology exams and being at college alot.
Fast Froward to Feb, It was half term (which my mothers birthday was in on the same day as one of my uni visits) so we spend the day in Liverpool for that and i got some really lovely clothes but decided i didnt want to go to uni there atall.
Stayed at ollies twice which was lovely and also had one crazy night in Rubys caravan which again, was lovely.
Erm... Back to college after that holiday and we got our exam results, i somehow managed to obtain 3 A grades (god knows how) so mum took us to Hereford to celebrate and i picked up more really lovely clothes...
March... Erm, nothing much happened in march, it seemed to go on forever as i was just drowning in workload, so many essays, English coursework, a new play to read in drama, maths revision etc...
April - began with half term again which was pretty dire if i'm being honest, we had a few nice days (Worcester, Errdig house, Telford, 13/14 mile walks, Wales) but then i just stayed at home by myself for the rest of the time and managed to put myself into overdraft due to mass online sprees (thank god holidays are over) erm... Max died :( boo... I managed to pour a boiling pan of pasta all over my hand and had to get it all bandaged (which was vile) and now we are yet again back at college.
My mum managed to get an interview for the job she wants in York (which is tomorrow - good luck mummy) and i decided i am infact going to Ozora festival in August - woo!
Today was the best day i've had all year though :) I just spent the whole afternoon lazing around, chatting in the sunshine. Beautiful.
If you were a disney princess. Which would you be? :)
I'd like to be Belle, because she's really fecking beaut. It would be nice to be really fecking beaut.
If someone you knew had cancer. would you ever do the race for life to raise money for them?
Im doing the race for life this year :)
If you inherited a farm from a dead relative. would you keep it or sell it?
I dont have any relatives with a farm? If i did have though i think i'd either convert it into a house but most probably sell it because i really dont have the time or energy to be away from a town and look after dirty animals.
If you had loads and loads of money. Would you be charitable? Which charity would you donate to?
The EDA, or the substance abuse team
If you ever got really annoyed with your hair would you ever cut it off really short out of frustration?
oh good god no. It's taken me 4 years to grow it all out... coz im such a crazy bitch, 4 years ago i decided it would be a good idea to shave one side of my head and have a floppy fringe on the other which i decided to dye green. It really wasnt a good idea.

























