Oh yeah, this is obvious... Not obvious to people who know me now but people who knew me then yeah.
How long were we 'on/off' for? Nearly 5 years?
I waited and waited and waited for you hoping you would change your ways but you never did and despite that i still kept falling and falling for you until you were literally ALL that i could think about.
I dont even know quite what it was i saw in you... I think it was the person i knew before you started hanging about with all the fucking pricks on the football team.
The you i knew that my little brother admired and wanted to be exactly like... You were so funny, so different, so kind but like so many others you changed into one of the rest of them. Why? You had so much talent... I remember coming to see your gigs dressed up as a fairy... Spending time with you after football on Fridays, crazy nights out at the high school and roundabouts, yelling insults at little pricks on the way home from school and hanging about in that grimy corridor by the science block... I also miss how you always stuck up for me if people were cunts.
Oh dear. I wish you'd just made a concrete decision upon whether you'd actually wanted to be with me or not rather than just picking me up and letting me down whenever it suited you.
You hurt me so much but i wont ever forget the times before you changed.
You were amazing, I hope you're happy now. I really do :)
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